My grandpa died at 4am.
I don't know how to deal with this..
I've never had anyone this close to me die before..
I'm going to Sudbury tonight...
I'm scared to see my dad...
I talked to him on the phone last night..
I've never heard a grown man cry...

R.I.P Roger Doucet Avril 1er 1917, Janvier 7, 2008
Je t'aime aujourd'hui et toujours <3

My grandpa's dying as I type this...
I feel so helpless..
I don't know what to do or say..
I had to listen to my dad cry on the phone..
I haven't stopped crying..
I'm basically just sitting here waiting for him to die...

I'm crushed... And I don't know how to handle this...

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Of my life.
Tired of feeling.
Tired of caring.
I want to go cold.
And not give a shit anymore.
Why can't I be like that?
Why can't I be emotionless?
I get rid of one issue,
Then another one arises..
I'm tired.
Just tired.
I want to sleep my life away.

My nerves are shot. 
I feel like i'm about to break down.
Does anyone care?
What a stupid question.
I know you care.
Because I have the greatest friends alive.

I'm ending things with Paul on Tuesday.
Laying everything out. Then never talking to him again.
I have to do this.
It'll only drive me insane if I don't.
Although i'm close to going crazy right now..

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Everything's back to normal. 
Joking.
Fun.
Smiles.
Happyness.

<3

That's what I have right now...You're all so perfect...and make my life amazing! Thanks to everyone for being so DAMN PERFECT! <3
God i'm so happy...seriously...I can't even remember the last time I was feeling so happy...way to be amazing guys! <3

GIVING YOU SOME LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE!! <3

Talking on msn/Teasing about raping each other/ Drinking at my house/ Too much Vodka/ Juice/ Picture frenzy/ Paparazzi attack/ Drama of the high school kids/ Movies at my house/ Teasing each other to no limit/ Missing the company/ Great days at work/ Busy days/ Not really watching the TV/ Lots of talking/ Talking before sleep/ Neither wanting to ( Read more... )

Honestly you starting all this drama is nothing but annoying. I don't want anything to do with you or most of your friends.  Just leave me be.  I didn't steal him from you. He kissed me. He wanted to go out on a date with me. You ignored him all night at my house then pushed me into him at the bar. Blame it on yourself.

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So apparently one of my "friends" is telling Paul things I tell them. And now Paul is pissed off that I talk about him. Thanks a fucking lot. Fantastic friend you are. Whoever you are.