everytime i ignore my own common sense and go with my heart i get fucked. kim is moving out friday the 24th, cuz im going to kill someone if she doesnt. love her, cant live with her children. they are disrespectful little assholes, and she allows it. this should be good anyways, i have distanced myself from friends because the person im dating ( Read more... )

for anyone who reads this still and cares, my mother passed this morning.

well im thinking this will be my last entry here as i have taken to writing in an actual paper journal. my life has made some major changes as of late. i have met a woman who is so wonderful i cant describe. and if all goes well i will spend the rest of my life with her adding her and her 3 children to my family. i find it so much easier to write ( Read more... )

well, i stuck my neck out. i told her how i felt, and she smiled. and when i leaned in to kiss her she didnt pull away. i love her, she loves me, and we cant be together. not yet anyways. i think of her all day, and after 2 years of not dreaming i dream of her. if this one isnt forever i think im done for good. i havent felt like this way in a long ( Read more... )

Mom is home, my dad fired half her doctors and they changed her meds. She is sane now, but forgets alot, partially due to the meds, partially due to the chemo shrinking her brain. What almost killed her apparently was a high amonia level in her blood. The high amonia comes from a diminished liver capacity. Is it bad that i wish she go silently in ( Read more... )

Been a long time since I have felt this way for anyone. A really long time.
Scares me, don't want to try and fail. Don't want to love and lose.
Do I tell and possibly lose a friend.
Or do I hold my tongue and never know.
Everything happens for a reason, what is the reason here?
Life needs to come with an owners manual.

You scored as Exciting. You are exciting, people want to fuck your brains out and you know it. Whether it's in an airplane or on the back of the bus, sex with you is always exciting.

Exciting
63%
Soft
56%
Hot
50%
Shy
38%
Sweet
31%
Awkward
25%
Violent
19%
Wet
13%
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My mother had to go back to the hospital. She has been on chemotharapy for almost 3 years straight and has lived 6 months longer than the docs thought possible. But all the chemicals are getting to her. She is exibiting mental problems with memory, and is occasionally dillusional. My father told us to expect that she wont be coming home. The chemo ( Read more... )

Chuck is taking off for a week and a half, is leaving me to run the show. Well, in his words " ha ha this mess is all yours, good luck" and yes, it is a mess. someone shoot me.

She is gorgeous. She is smart. She is funny. She is perfect. She is 19. Why me?