im sick of feeling like theres something wrong with me

why do i feel so lonely. i have no reason to.

I dont understand myself and im sick of feeling unstable and unhappy. this isnt me

I feel off ( Read more... )

i feel like that light inside of me that keeps me believing is not as bright as it once was

im sick of being treated like a piece of meat

do i not command any kind of respect of myself?

im sitting here on a gorgeous listening to beautiful music (Rimsky-korsakov - Scherzo Fantastique) and im in a lovely mood ( Read more... )

i just got told i have dead eyes

makes me feel great

not

i need to write this somewhere ( Read more... )

today i had a man come into work to do a telegraphic transfer (send money overseas ( Read more... )

i just had the most 4 amazing, party ridden, drug filled, glamorous days in melbourne. i spent these days with a boy i didnt really know, and ended up really falling for. which scares me. i am the most detached, unromantic bitch i know, i rarely let anyone into me (emotionally). but it scares me how much i fell for this boy ( Read more... )

go back for checkup on friday to see if i go in for surgery. Again. will be 3rd time this time. i think i will be going back under. things arnt right down there. hmmm yay again *sigh ( Read more... )