i think the world is greatly separated into two spheres. the haves, and the have-nots. one side walks around questioning what they can do to gain (whether it be gain momentum, strength, peace, or place), while the other side doesnt bother to question shit because they already have what is needed and beyond. where does the line get drawn between ( Read more... )

Lately ive come to this incredible realization... this is MY life. i dont owe anyone anything. its ok to make myself happy, even if its not the best choice for someone else. i feel so guilt ridden all the time, or so consumed by other peoples feelings. i know it means something good that i care, that my heart is in the right place, but at times i ( Read more... )

i just ate 10 chikken nuggets. today michael came over and we made a gravity bong. and i got so high. i ate mass amounts, and now im more tired then i ever remember being.

i was so proud of lauren for getting her license that i ran around and told everyone. afterschool i tried to shop but there was NOTHING cute, ANYWHERE. i came home and did homework, then realized i had shiTloads of honors work..sat down and read thirty pages in 15 minutes. when i put my mind to it, im a motherfucking G. that includes note taking/ ( Read more... )

seriously starting to think i have TB....well, whenever i cough my delicious throaty nasty cough people make jokes about it. YES I KNOW MY BOYFRIEND IS RUSSIAN ( Read more... )

i would really like to know why the one and only day i have time to meander on down to the public library and use it to check my email ...and other things i cannot do thanks to Julian's virus..IT DOESNT WORK. the entire seattle library had a failure. and now that it FINALLY works...no internet pages will work except, randomly, LIVEJOURNAL.....which ( Read more... )

nicole ritchie is cute. i like the simple life. lauren and i plan to be like them when we grow up..what a goal ( Read more... )

last night i was worried about michael, for hours, and then he texts me saying hi, how are you blah blah.. i lost my phone in my car and my dad took the car... i wanted to shoot him in the head. i was happy he was okay, but pissed off that i worried over nothing. the birds are chirping like 20932093029320932 miles a minute outide my window, and i ( Read more... )

Yesterday Michael came over and I made him breakfast...I did such a good job, it was astounding. sausage, apple turnover, and eggs. :) after he left, he called me from band just to say HI on his break..and then called me while he drove home to say hi again like 2 hours later.. i felt so warm and loved. today my internet got fixed -happiness!- and i ( Read more... )

Just like Lauren, my thursdays are pieces of shit.  ME CHOCA JUEVES. chemistry. math. hard hard hard.

So today I had a breakdown..panic attack, anxiety attack..i think anxiety attack is more like it. I went to go meet my group during mentorship, when i should have been doing something like working on my graphic arts project cus i have a 90.8 in ( Read more... )