hm... long time no update at all... story of my life. i got an email saying my paid account was about to expire which made me sad a little considering i've done nothing to beautify my page, nor have i updated much. perhaps i will do that :) matt and i are still together. 9 months this month. i laughed and told him that if you thought about it a ( Read more... )

do i ever update on this thing? guess not... nothing new is really going on. thank God school going on break. i feel like i'm just sitting in class as everything goes by me. i honestly do nothing productive at school. now i'm slammed with 4 projects in 2 classes and i really just don't care. i just want my christmas break. matt will only be home ( Read more... )

geez. i never write in this thing anymore. i just don't have time anymore. maybe ill get better at it... who knows. tomorrow is me and matts 5 months. i'm so stoaked. sara and i are doing a scavenger hunt around st.louis leading them up to finding us at the red roof in where we'll have pizza and candles and stuff. i love hanging out with them. they ( Read more... )

dang! so. matt and i are offically on a "break". what the crap that means... beats me. well, i have no idea what is going on with my life right now. it's all confused. all i want to do is just go to chris' and sleep and let him hold me. so last night i went over there. he kissed me. dang man. it was awesome. i missed it. you have no idea. our ( Read more... )

oh man. what a day. chris is tryin to get back in my life so hard. i feel so bad for him. i'm not gunna lie. i wish i could have just went over there and hugged him and told him everything would be okay... but i can't. i can't let myself get there. i can't let myself be the girl for him. maybe i am/already was... but now he has to deal with me ( Read more... )

bbllech! matt left for school today. so emo man! last night was so hard to say goodbye. and yeah, like, he's only gunna be 20 minutes away but you have to be stupid to say things won't change b/c the will. it's gunna be hard and we won't see each other as much, it's just weird. i don't wanna think about the future. i just gotta take it day by day. ( Read more... )

oooh man! school started.... vomit mop it up with some hardcore comit. for real. my classes are way easy thus resulting in really stupid snobby people in my classes. YES! my favorite! it's cool, i like my painting class and my government and my english class.... other than that, not so much. i like mr.haley, he's really funny. my contemp. issues ( Read more... )

blaah... so emo! i'm trying to put together a cd for matt since he leaves for wash u on the 22... :( so if anyone thinks of a good song, that'd be super. lol... i wanna do like a cd booklet too with all fun things to remind him of us/me. so yeah... school starts really freakin' soon and that's stupid. my neck hurts therefore i'm going to go take a ( Read more... )

school starts next wednesday. are you freaking kidding me? i'm pretty sure i have the easiest schedule known to any pattonville student ( Read more... )

eeeee! i'm home! praise the LORD! :) two weeks is a long freakin' time. there's no tv, no movies, no computer, no cd player.... no nothin'. i mean, it's really good to enjoy silence, and to just talk to people, but sometimes i needed my entertainment! i did manage to get to walmart and buy ashlee simpson's cd and am in love with her/it. nothing new ( Read more... )