Everything is the same. Which is ok I suppose. Nothing new or old. Right now I am sort of free of relationships (boyfriend wise) and I guess Im doining better without one. Which is good =). This weekend I hope to hang with a Friend Jenn at Panda Express and catch up on a few things. I don't think she really wants to which is ok I don't mind. It ( Read more... )

Well I am ok so far and getting better! I have decided to stop everything, Dating Rick that is. I just realized I was happy. Not with him but other things. I just need some time to figure everything out. I am sure that this is the best decision so I am going to stick with it ( Read more... )

Well as a year goes it brings with it the happy and bad endings. With the coming of a new year new hopes and dreams come with it. I like that quote because i just thought of it lol. Anyway, I just called my b/f to tell him how much I loved him and how sorry I was for....some stuff. He was kinda tipsy but i think he understands. I was kinda alone ( Read more... )

Ok i had deleted the last four entries and have deiced to kind of start anew. So I am in the middle. I am making stupid choices and I am stoping it right now! I like two guys. they both make me feel very good, but one is more then the other. I am just..... not sure. I love both of them and I dont know how. I know that i am acting stupid and I ( Read more... )

I most likley spelled peace on Earth wrong. Anyway. I am ok.. fornow. I am up in NY for x-mas and I am almost looking forward to seeing my familiy again. its been a while so it could be good to see them every now and then. Anyway. I am also going to the city for a "class trip" so I hope that turns out well ( Read more... )

Things change, for reasons unknown. I am starting to like JereLyn again, sort of as more than a friend. I dont understand. Im gay yet, I still have feelings for her. I know Im not bi because She is pretty much the only girl i would consider 'dating'. Its weird. We have some much in common. But I dont know..... I hate not knowing, its weird. I also ( Read more... )

I think that the person that I care for the most is lying to me. But I am not sure. Its happened once before and I promised myself that it wouldn't happen again. But I am not sure. Its weird.. O well. Live sucks what can can you do about it ( Read more... )

So Last night my therapist and I came to the conclusion that I am way to mature for my age, Why? I am still not sure. I guss its because I was forced to when I was a kid because i never really got any form of unconditional love... I dont know. But for some reason I can't stop thinking about MH... (the guy for last entry) Anyway... It weird, Life.. ( Read more... )

OK so far. It sucks. There was a cast party on Sat. after Auntie Mame (a school play) and everyone got drunk and I was Tipsy, lol. Anyway All in all I missed my date that I had on Sunday because of it and now lol... i dunno it wasn't really a date either we were just going to hang out ( Read more... )

Its never a good day, really. When is it ever in the life of a teenager? ANyway I wrote a song for both me and the person of my last entry, my friend ( Read more... )