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[time4menow1965]

I am sitting here fighting back tears.  I have just spent the last half hour talking to an old friend that I have not seen in several years.   I find myself rocking in my chair, the emotions I am feeling are so real.  You see , he finally had the courage to leave his marriage and put it all behind him after 25 yrs.  I told him what I am going thru

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[rowena_falkirk]

Wow! That sure is a lot to deal with. Let's try to slow the 'emotional roller coaster' and think things through slowly, clearly

[time4menow1965]

oh Whoa nelly! Let me clear some things up **chuckling**

1. IM not nor have ever been suicidal lol
2. Theres no guilt purchasing going on. When I referred to getting my kids the things they want/need I meant in regards to treating myself to an evening out or a new piece of clothes. I have always put my kids first even at the expense of a bit of happiness for me...not that Im "buying" their acceptance. Trust me I know when and how to say no.
3. And last but not least... the friend I referenced to is just a friend and not anyone I am involved with! He we just trying to help me realize that I can be a good mom and good to myself too.

LOL I am laughing here at how misconstrued it all was....lol no worries.

[rowena_falkirk]

OH, Thank God!

I was worried about you is all! I am so happy that you are ok.

As always, Warm hugs!