i guess im annoying, an idiot, get drunk and pass out, have no character, or no integrity, and am really lame. i guess i should just die. you see, i didnt aim my hurt feelings right towards you. i aimed them at something you care about. you will eventually get over the hurtful "words" that i said. but me, i cry at least 3 to 4 times a day and hate ( Read more... )

First off, i want to say to everyone that im sorry for saying all the stupid shit i did. I never really meant it i was just really upset that my "friends" were saying shit about me that hurt alot, so i retaliated to that by talking shit about all of them. Now i feel dumb for doing it...like i said before i never wanted to stop being friends with ( Read more... )

dont apologize,

I HOPE YOU CHOKE AND DIE

i have all these emails saved from brook. remember how its cool how i got replaced by my own best friend. that makes me feel like shit. and its also cool how no one, and i mean NO ONE will tell me what i ever did to them. i dont talk to anyone anymore because ive lost trust in everyone. why cant someone just tell me what i did. i dont answer my ( Read more... )

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its so nice and sunny out. right now eric alex kyle shea elisha and a bunch of their friends are outside playing 4 square. im sitting inside on the computer. last night i saw genna and it made me really happy. but sitting here alone by myself is sad. wheres my best friend when i need her. why cant she come sit in the house and be bored with me too ( Read more... )

you didnt think i would forget about pictures did you?

( old pictures )

im going to miss all my buggy friends ( Read more... )

tuesday i hung out with erin and we had girl talk. im failing 4 of my classes and my mom told me i had two choices. either go to a mental institution because im too stupid to get good grades, or go to a nunery. things are fine now though. my sister is moving out. my grandma is slowly dying on my living room couch. me and eric get closer and closer ( Read more... )

on december 1st of 2003, on my very first journal ever i made an audblog. an audblog is one of those things when you call livejournal and they post what you say. friday night, i worked from 5-10 and then was at my sisters party. someone called my house, and played the recording that i had on my livejournal. the next day i found out that this person ( Read more... )