Comments | timsbird: I know, I know, it's been a LONG TIME (couple of years)

timsbird

I know, I know, it's been a LONG TIME (couple of years)

Jan 22, 2007 20:30

So here goes it. I'm back in therapy, major depression issues and massive eating disorder relapse. In fact, I feel like I've started completely over. Right not I'm seeing a counselor, psychiatrist, and med. doctor. They're all monitoring the crazy me to make sure I don't lose it completely and finally do myself in. In the last six months I've ( Read more... )

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laskdfj January 18 2008, 03:02:00 UTC

Mentally don't you get tired of playing the game? (Sorry I am on ed recovery group and started to read your journal.

Do you like to get pushed and question your ed including the restricting or do you just like to leave that up to you and only challenge the purging?

timsbird January 18 2008, 11:02:52 UTC

I guess I've only ever challenged the purging. In my e.d. mind as long as I'm not doing that, I feel I'm okay. Logically, I know I need to focus on the restricting but since the purging is what puts me through the most hell, I've just always assumed if I could stop doing that then everything else will fall into place.

laskdfj January 18 2008, 14:27:04 UTC

I think challenging all of it will probably help the most.

Actually, I am sure you know there is everything to know about your disorder as I do. So this maybe something you already know.

I think challenging the reason why you do your behavior, like emotions or control, will stop it more effectively.

How long have you done treatment for again?

timsbird January 20 2008, 12:22:42 UTC

I've been seeing my therapist for about 5 years and last year I went IP for a month. Unfortunately I've had my ed for 20 years and I know that it is going to be a great struggle to change 20 years of distorted and backward thinking. I'm still haning in there though, with the hopes that I can achieve full recovery.