Depressed

[timsbird]

 I don't know how it happened, all I know is that I've been extremely depressed for a couple of days now and it seems like it's getting worse.  I've completely lost my appetite and even if I do feel a little bit hungry food just seems to alude me.  I can barely bring myself to eat even the tiniest morsels.  My doctor says I'm losing weight again

Comments

[tinyballerina83]

it IS the ED messing with your perception. I had been doing so well too. But recently I started sinking again. Today I had to take my dog, the love of my life and the reason why I am on this Earth, to the vet for a procedure. So needless to say, I am depressed because of it and as a result, Ana has taken full advantage of THAT. It's 10:34 a.m. and the only things I've consumed was a cup of o.j. juice and 2 cups of SILK Very Vanilla soymilk. And there are two eggs in the fridge right now but I am not hungry and have no desire or intention to eat right now. Look, your doctor is telling you that you are losing weight. That is BAD. Very, very BAD. YOU cannot lose weight. You are the exception to society's rule that losing weight is good. For you it's not. Be smart like I know you are. Listen to your rational voice. Be aware of what you are doing to yourself from that rational point of view. Stay strong.

[myhappythoughts]

I'm glad to see an entry from you again :) You were on my mind and I was wondering how you were. I'm sorry ED is continuing to give you grief. I'm sorry you're in a funk. And I'm sorry the comment from your mom is ruminating in your mind... why do people focus so much on the numbers and think that you're not sick unless you're below 100? Like there isn't such a thing as height to figure into the equation... bleh...

[lala2]

I don't know what your mom was thinking when she made that remark. The only possible thing I can think of was that she was trying to be reassuring?? To herself and you??

You are not fat!!! Please listen to the medical professionals in your life. THEY know of what they speak!

[lala2]

I just wanted to tell you I was thinking of you. I hope you are doing okay.

[timsbird]

thanks for thinkging about me, you're so sweet. Actually, I've been better. I just found out that my insurance has denied me for inpatient treatment. I'm not sure how I'm going to get through this on my own. I'm just trying to take it one step at a time.