Well things keep going from bad to worse. I dont really wanna go into detail like usual cuz so many things have happened and i feel like im 2nd rate to everyone except my grandparents,dad,allen and tanya. Not really my mom too but with whats been going on i feel like i did my part and now i wish she could help us all out and try to oppose my sis ( Read more... )

First off this isnt a depressing post or a pissed post its just one of regret, so if you dont feel like reading....its understandable.Anyway... Lately ive been feeling good except for the fact that im still missing everything that made my life good. I feel ive become a burden to alot of people and i feel im more a let down anymore than a place for ( Read more... )

So finally after all the shit that was school im happy again. Im hanging out with nikki again and im glad cuz i really missed her. I still dont see phil or hear from him but thats ok. Anyway school still sux but its ok cuz the semester will be ending soon i think(in like a month) so i wont have to deal with it much longer. Allen and I are still ( Read more... )

Its funny how I used to hate going to school and applying myself because it wasnt fun or enjoyable,but i went anyway cuz my friends were there. Now in college I have virtually no one,people are moody and change day to day so u cant count on anyone to be nice to u the next day, and the classes which i actually cared about for once dont want anything ( Read more... )

This school thing is really stressin me out.I really wish sometimes that i wasnt so noticeable.I feel like im back in highschool this time however i have no friends and the teachers are even against me. I find it ironic that i wanted to do something id love and be happy with even if nothing else worked out and now its like that one thing is using ( Read more... )

I just started college and still even after hanging around down there for the past week or so, no one seems to eager to make friends.Basically no one cares and it seems like school without the people to make it interesting.Ive got two great teachers so far,eventhough one makes me feel kinda unnerved :-\ due to my lack of experience playing piano, ( Read more... )

Lately all i do is sit around and think about all the good times i had and how shitty i feel anymore.Girls always bring this out in me but ive never had this happen at the same time as not having all of my friends there to cheer me up with there goofiness and caring. I miss them so much and how they used to be.It will never be the same and everyone ( Read more... )

So finally after almost 9 years of being plagued with problems that stem from my family to the things and people around me, I think im finally breaking down. I say this becuz now i believe that the world is changing into a totally awful place that i dont fit into and becuz of my belief system it looks like ill never fit in. Theres not a girl out ( Read more... )

ok well i just wanted to post to say tommorow(for all of those who know me and know that my guitar has been without pickups for the past month or so) im getting my new pickups put in :D.I cant wait and after that all ill have to do is get a good 30watt tube amp and ill be set.Anyway this summer has been pretty good so far.Ive done alot of crazy ( Read more... )

Its sad to think that in 3 days alot of us will never see eachother again.I know ill try to keep in touch with people but i honestly know alot of people wont really miss me and i wont really miss them only because i know i didnt belong.Thats how i always felt my whole School career.I started off alone in Kindergarden and i ended up alone at the end ( Read more... )