How do I begin to tell this story? How can I explain why I am sitting here, that I am hiding, actually- badly needing to pee but afraid to go back inside? How to admit that I am the coward that I always tried not ti be? Weak, uncomitted, lazy, needy... and above-all, that messy, dirty word: emotional ( Read more... )

The sound of the rain on the concrete is visceral- it feels like a release.

Eventually all of this is going to blow up in my face- I know that. Mainly it's just a question of "when," and "how."

we are all guilty of accepting those atrocities which we can change.

i don't know why i haven't had anything to say lately. there is a sense of fermentation, and of course, the usual feelings of guilt and shame. for all my talk and tongue wagging, my choices have always been intuitive ones, and despite the current restraints i have placed upon myself, i keep hoping that when the time is right, i will make the right

i miss tom gilberti.

Dr. Padalino offered me a good position doing graduate work in collaboration with LLE in Rochester. Although this would be a straight shot towards middle class, and ultimately graduate shcool, I think I am going to have to decline ( Read more... )

Excrutiatingly long layover (18 hours?!) made longer by the fact that I temporarily lost my passport during the 3 minutes between the customs stamp, the airport train, and the security gate. Was strolling around the airport with the idea of finding someplace more comfortable to sleep when this happened. Of course I cried and wandered around in a ( Read more... )

Hi Tom ( Read more... )

I got an A- in Quantum Mechanics!