John is still talking to me everyday.
Josh has a crush on me.
Jacob is interested in me.

I don't even know what it is I am looking for.
Maybe I'm impossible.

?

I miss all those people who were perfect. That didn't want me.

And, honestly, I'm happy as a clam (however happy THAT is) at the moment at least, and this isn't mean to sound sad or self- ( Read more... )

yesterday i woke up at 7:30 and went to the city with jesse john and reno ( Read more... )

i got "the power of one" today.
not one of the new editions.
not one of the many paperback editions with stupid looking covers.
no.
i got
a
first edition
with the dust jacket looking pretty damn good, even if it wasn't 20 years old.
first edition!!!!

my favorite book!

im so happy!!

also i must stop writing.

Adam and i talked for a little bit on facebook. and it hurt so much i cried. and so ive decided that im never going to do that again if i can help it ( Read more... )

a guy that wants to cuddle and hold hands.
preferably while talking to me, though i could deal with watching a movie if you arent a great conversationalist.
must be comfy to lean on, warm, sweet.

he posted a whole bunch of pictures.

he was having so much fun. and i miss him so much.

i wanted to cry but i thought it would be overdramatic.

im so bored

:(

got drunk for the second night in a row. it was great. i love the group. theyre all so chill....

i want to have a sweet warm guy around to cuddle with though.

im fucking pissed off.

pissed. pissed pissed pissed pissed.

i just want to scream every cuss word i know at the top of my lungs.

but gotta be a good girl. dont want to attract attention.