i was thinking. all the bad things in the last relationship. thats what i have to focus on to get over it. not the good things, i cant think about that till way later. and i have been doing alright. but then i thought....what if i didnt deserve what i thought i did ( Read more... )

soooo, Fall out boy concert was amazing, i had so much fun! cobra starship rocked, we were really close, it was great.

overall, the weekend was great, i made cheesecake, we watched v for vendetta, and it was just.... yay!

so yay, feeling better, meow!

<3

i hate it when my imagination gets ahead of real life....it makes me sad when things dont go the way i saw them going.

damn it

You are luckier than usual today, but it's still not a good idea to bet the farm on an intuitive hunch right now. Paradoxically, you could win big, but there is an inherent instability in having too much. Also, you could be more interested in theory than in practice. Don't get so lost in philosophical discussions that you miss a truly practical ( Read more... )

umm, so ok im dramatic, lol

daves birthday gift killed me. why is he sweet and thoughtful NOW? god, my heart broke all over again...blah

anyway, i need to just focus on me and let life happen... ^.^

so, once again, i cant read boys. and what i thought might be possible, i guess isnt.

damn me.

this weekend was amazing. best birthday yet. sure beats the hell out of last yrs. as for what happened, lets just say that on the night of my birthday, we all went to the blue martini. i remember geting in the car to go home....flash to me sitting at the toilet puking and jordan holding my hair... flash to morning. thats all i remember. and i mean ( Read more... )

ill tell you it is some shit when people tell you one thing and then somethign else happens. i am just so pissed beyond belief right now about the casting of this fucking show, holy fucking shit ( Read more... )

so, the fact that dave isnt here, it working out rather well. its not that i dont think about him, or talk about him to our friends, but it hasnt been as hard bc he isnt here. as soon as he gets back, i know it will be bad again, but maybe this wont be as devistating as i thought ( Read more... )

its done, its over, its official, and i love it.

sure, in a week when i stare at the wall alone, i will be depressed, but i made a decision, and its like 6 months later than it should have been.

now to heal and move on.

*breathe*