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Today
...I remembered my dream of making robots hallucinate and actually felt motivated by it. For a moment I could imagine going through university here in Göttingen to achieve my ambitions of joining the staff there. It was just a moment, but it was a good moment.
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Dear Garry
Your birthday has popped up in my diary while my book on Narcissists recommended writing letters to your ex, which combined into this. Not that I think you are a narcissist or any of the other diagnosis's that exes like to pile on. I do think you have narcissistic tendencies, but most of us do. What I do think is that you live through your partners ( Read more... ) -
Angry, angry, angry.
I am still angry at Garry. I don't think I would be, now. May be sad. May be accepting. But I'm still angry. Tom is battling like crazy to keep me alive past our agreed deadline, when I will start looking at euthanasia. He could have really used Garry's support through what are likely my last months. Yet Garry couldn't cope, even though we kept ( Read more... ) -
Now the second era has ended
I had never heard of LJ before I came to the UK. Indeed, I took an interest, because a guy I found rather handsome, kept talking about his and how I should read it if I wanted to know about him (which turned out confusing as hell, as his second latest entry was all about a lady who wasn't me being very attractive. Well, that guy was Garry and we ( Read more... ) -
Morning by myself
I do hate being by myself. T is off for his counselling, which I have been pushing him into for the last 6 months. Yet I wake up by myself and turn into pudding. Arg! Come on self! Stop being such a wuss! -
Letter and TIL
Dear stomach kindly fuck off.
Signed,
Me
In other new TIL that both Kevin from Kevin alone at home and Elijah Wood starred as children together. It is called "The Good Son" and is fairly creepy for its genre (h
ttp://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Good_Son_(film)). It does however mean that Macaulen(?) Culken is the same age as Elijah. My ( Read more... ) -
Bad poetry and Robin Williams
also, why does lj not allow auto-posting to tumblr?
No tsetse flyToday I want to cry ( Read more... ) -
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Self harm day one. Hi, I'm back again. My lovely not cutting tools didn't do the trick in the long run. Feeling something cut through the pain and misery helped though. Something I guess. I hate my life and I want to die. I feel like an angsty teenager. Can I be an angsty adult? Apart from the fact I am not angsty. I am ill and frustrated and have ( Read more... ) -
Flu + antidepressants = Lithium shakes of doom!
This is quite exciting. I have been suffering from a temperature since yesterday. Not pleasant, but I am fairly used to it. The real problem are the shakes! I can not stand on one leg, the other one shakes too much. Walking does all sorts of exciting things to my muscles as I am constantly counterbalancing. Getting back up from kneeling is ( Read more... )
