it's funny to me. the way we write. the way express ourselves. and how sometimes it's far too hard to find the right words. words that justify the situation. words that condemn him. words that allow you to relive the feelings. to watch the scenes play out as you read. and it's funny to me how powerful love is. and how impossible it is to capture ( Read more... )

you wrapped your arms around me and pulled me close to you. you kissed the crown of my head and whispered the lyrics into my ear. and i was happy to be there. to be yours. to feel your arms arouns me. to feel your body pressed against mine. to feel your breath on my ear and neck and your fingers in my hair. "'cause in your eyes love it grows so i'm ( Read more... )

sadness.
it has a habit of catching us. it just sneaks up behind you and sucker punches you in the jaw when you check over your shoulder.
i am yet to find the best way to react to that tingling in my face.
sadness.
sometimes it is insatiable. it leaves you searching for a way to make it better. the perfect combination of ice and heat. the perfect ( Read more... )

it's funny how things can go from exhilerating to enormously depressing and draining. and it is raining raining raining. and inside i feel numb numb numb. i simply can't think about it because it is too difficult to fathom. i like him a lot i really do. and i am always feeling like i ruined it. and then i am wondering how something so small can ( Read more... )

eric and I go to crappy concerts...except dave matthews because that wasn't crappy. and we go on the lake and listen to chill music and go sailing and lay on the raft and contemplate life. it's nice. sometimes we drink a few too many beers and lay next to each other and say "oh man" and have mad laughing fits while he kisses my hair and and I tell ( Read more... )

so i am reading what i wrote and thinking not only am i a terrible correspndent i am a terrible speller. it wasn't sarcasm. merely introspection. i would like to be older because being older affords more freedom that i crave. but i keep waiting for my life to begin for that utterly pure and inspiring, innocent and intriguing part of being a ( Read more... )

i suppose i should elaborate on those talks. they are those talks that are so anticipated. where you both know just what's coming next and where you are both overly defensive and trying to shift the blame. they are those talks that force you to admonish what you feel and what you meant. they force you to be hateful and to inflict pain in order to ( Read more... )

i've been feeling mildly volatile and very stuck. very stuck in this in between that i am incapable of explaining to you because you are not in my head and because quite frankly you don't belong there. but i wish i could make you understand. i would like to be able to make anyone understand. why i feel so moved. so affected. so indescribably sad. i ( Read more... )

KYLE (9:19:32 AM): yes i think u hit the nail on the head...no we did break up but we got back together and we are still trying to work on things...yes i would still like to hang out from time to time with you but if i am going to try and make things work with katie its kinda hard...i really am truly sorry if i hurt you that bad because i did still ( Read more... )

i've got this delicate lisp ( Read more... )