I just woke up to two messages from a very depressed boyfriend and the news that I am a trigger-mctriggerson.  AWESOME.  I hate this so fucking much.  I can't puke and I need to.  It's an addiction.  I ate 4 cookies, a bite (literally) of bread, and a burrito today.  Then I went on a 35 minute walk (in my cam-boot) because I needed to make sure I ( Read more... )

 I seriously can't believe I pulled a muscle puking.  Only me ( Read more... )

I lose at life ( Read more... )

 Who the hell brought so many leftovers to my house ( Read more... )

 SO happy.

and as content as a kitty by a fire with a dish of cream.

I needed to feel loved, and be able to snuggle, and reach out and have someone be there.  And be there for someone else when they reach out too : )

He makes me feel like I'm pretty enough just the way I am.

Oh- and then there's the sex after the 70 day wait   : D

Today was so very............just......not happy.  I went to the shrink and she wanted me to talk about when I was molested.  Um....Nothanks.  I sat there reciting monologues in my head until she finally let that subject go ( Read more... )

 I bet this song is about me......

Not really. Well, the song bit, anyways- I really am vain. This fact about myself really pisses me off, though, because I'm not beautiful, lovely, pretty, or any of those wonderful adjectives.  The best I ever get is "You're so cute"  Which I suppose I shouldn't gripe about.  I mean, I'm glad I'm not completely ( Read more... )

 I just b/ped

Why Can't I handle being home alone????

Oh.  And I feel sick and miserable.  Man, what a Saturday......

 I have "creep" by radiohead stuck in my head.  Anyways.......no one is home today.  I've been home alone all day and it's pretty boring.  But oh well.  I'm generally used to such things.  I'm kinda depressed, but since I'm all drugged it's not to the point where I'll do anything.  I mostly just want something good to happen for once.  I guess I  ( Read more... )

 Meds are so good.  Well, at least, the right meds are.  I adore the ones I'm one now so so so much.  I've gone 3 days (if I don't puke today) without purging.  And I went through and calculated calories and I'm eating an average of 1,260 a day.  Which seems like a lot to me, but is a little less than the average person.  However, my mind keeps ( Read more... )