my views on things and just the stupid things that im thinking don't make sense and i wan't them to go away. its hurting me, i want to be happy and stupid shit to go away. i don't understand at all. i've been praying, why aren't my prayers being answered?

please, will someone just tell me why i have to feel like complete crap? why is it that i start to feel better and then something else has to happen? why is everything in my life right now so screwed up? dont i deserve to be just a little happy?

ive been praying, thats all i can do. i have my faith. this will be ok soon i know it will.

been awhile since ive had one of these.
im prayin things will get better.
things have gotten better slowly,
just a slow process i guess.