I've been holding onto this for almost 5 months now. The words are locked in my throat. My words stumble out of me and cower in their quick reverse. I' ve always known that I needed to take my time, but now I'm so afraid that time is against me. The longer I keep this to myself, the more hopeless I feel. But telling you everything that I have would ( Read more... )

I am not moving forward. I am not growing. Everything is stagnant.

I am lonely. I am missing people that I ought not to miss.

I wish there was something more.

I wish there was a single person who I could feel 100% open with in a reciprocal way...
...I've been wanting to learn and get to know everything there is to know about you,
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It's strange, the other week I met (or rather, saw and waved at) a person I hadn't met before and I instinctively felt that we would share a much closer relationship...not anytime SOON, maybe even a year from now! With one wave, I felt as though I knew exactly who and how she was...and it wasn't some overwhelming feeling, it was a quietly content ( Read more... )

The only thing that makes me feel alright at the moment
is knowing that a month ago....I was a bigger mess than I am right now.

1)...saved a small caterpillar from being squished by my uncle's new Hyundai MPV.
2) ...cried from watching Tyra reunite two soulmates who had not been able to find eachother for 15 years.
3)...told myself that it was alright to be my own Valentine.


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Prehistoric Lovers Found in Embrace
(Discovery Channel/Associated Press)


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I am not embarrassed to admit that for my 21st,
I had a Spongebob Squarepants cake.


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TUTORIAL PART III: HOW TO OPEN A CEMPEDAK

Cempedaks (pronounced CHUHM-puh-dahk) are MASSIVE weird looking fruits.
The cempedak featured in this blog entry was the length of my whole forearm (elbow to fingertips), but I've seen cempedaks as big as 4 human heads put together! I can best describe the smell of unopened cempedaks as smelling like ( Read more... )

EVERYONE IN THE HOUSE GOT HUNGRY FOR SOME SAAAHWEEEET THANGS,
so we brought out some MANGOSTEENS AND LONGANS!


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Today, my mom and sis went over the Singaporean-Malaysian border to see my aunt in Johor Bahru...and on the way back, they stopped at some old-school fruit stall and bought some classic tropical fruit...
...some Mangosteens and Chempedaks!


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