why am i wasting my time why should i bother why should i do my schoolwork why should i fill out my college applications why should i eat why should i sleep why am i typing i dont want to

im scared i need protection. why do i always feel like their hunting me down. i cant focus cant sleep and there are chills running down my spine.

i dont want to be here anymore. i just feel like dying right now. i want to get a huge sharp fucking knife and rip myself appart with it. i want to skin myself alive and pour lemon juice on it and just fucking scream in pain. beautiful beautiful. i want to watch the life bleed out of me or some one else i want to watch their life just slip ( Read more... )

so a few days ago i slept with one of my friends girlfriends. luckly shit worked out allright at school when i talked to him. she told him first and he was suprisingly cool about the whole situation. i talked to him at school today and everything seems fine. things were just a little awkword after school when she came to meet him and she said ( Read more... )

i did a bad bad bad bad good thing... lets watch shit pan out eh?

strange weekend.

i got animals dvd and book. shes fucking nuts but i want to take her home with me and keep her. to bad i dont know her.

near death ( Read more... )

journalism sucks i dont want to ever write another god damn artical. i just dont like it. i am barley literiete i cant spell obiously and i dont see a reason for me to have to report stupid outdated shit. my time is more valuable to me then it is to the paper i guess. i love bitch she is amazing i just love her. shes going to come to town. i ( Read more... )

my neck hurts...i can barley hold my head up.

i went over to wyatts house to print and that i did it was allright i got a bunch done. but my fucking head hurts. i love to make pictures im such a dork but all is fair in love and war.

another valuable day spent with the family. I guess there are some things that need to be done that are unpleasant at times. My Aunt is psycho but besides that all is well. I talked with my parents and we pretty much agreed that i wont apply to college this spring but will still graduate this december. I might move up to oragon and live with ( Read more... )