So its been a while since ive written here. What a crazy fucking weekend. We found some Human bones. They were cool. im two fried to fucking write anything at all. Wow on a ps type o thing i reaized that its the fucking Valentines day mother fucking thing. all i can say is RIP Jacob i only met you a year ago today but thanks for standing up ( Read more... )

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so here i am again. Another year older and dumber. Too many drugs, i want to swim im mushrooms. I want to drown myself i k...i cant fucking sleep. im fucked i have too much work and not enough time or strength. i never thought i could reach the point that i couldent do it anymore. i just cant. im a diffrent person i dont know who i am ( Read more... )

im crazy dont mind me

so i love megan. im pathetic. i shouldent let my self be like that. i am a bloody sap. she loves me. in the past month i have used up 3000 cell phone min. talking to her.

I switched to C-track. im in school now. im nearing the end and now that im finally there im scared. i dont know what the fuck im going to do with my life now.

i want to switch to c track

new years was okay

lets step back for a while.

i dont know whats going on

Why does my sorrow turn into violence?. I too am bleeding internally. The tares in my stomach were made by my own inability. Mine own barbed wired protection, damages me internally. Thriving externally whilst dieing as an introvert. No news yet. No tears on my barren, arid outer walls. There is only now life and death. No regrets. No ( Read more... )

How many sperm, in how many ejaculations? How many eggs? How many kisses? How many Bottles of Champaign, grapes, immigrant farm workers? What bullets missed their targets? Missed my grandfather, my father? The bombs that hit their empty house. Each breath, instant everything that has ever happened leads to now. Here this instant. Me ( Read more... )

so im really board and tired. i havent done anything all semester and now its over and im stuck here drowning trying to keep my grades at a pass. i keep fucking around and off. i just party and not care and waste mytime. im a zombie i dont know where i am anymore. im confuzed