How crazy is it that I am almost done with my freshman year of college. I can still remember the first time I wrote in this online Journal. Though at times I still feel like that awkward girl, I know that I am so much more than that. I know that I am a powerful woman. And even though I get scared of the world sometimes, I just know that I can get ( Read more... )

They wonder why I never hang out with them. And they wonder why I don't like them half the time. My family knows about my fucking anger and they know how easy it is to piss me off. I know they do it on purpose. It's not my fault that sometimes I mess up when I talk, I'm not fucking perfect. And neither are they. I don't always point out the stupid ( Read more... )

 Summer,filled with bikinis and small shorts. But since it is my senior year i have a lot to think about. My senior pictures, ,y 18th birthday, and m,y Last year in band. And then we have my sister's graduation party which makes my summer crazy. Just two days before we are doomed to be filled with stress and way too many people. Even though I do ( Read more... )

 Junior year. Equipped with ACT's college applications and let's not forget prom. So i have in mind who i want to go with, but my problem is... i doubt he wants to go with me. Though i do already have my dress all picked out, just waiting to be ordered. The problem...no date. This stupid boy will no freaking ask me. GRRR.........What am i supose to ( Read more... )

The summer days are winding down. We have only a few days until our summer will be gone. We cannot change anything that has happened this year, for it is over. You may regret some of the things you have done, I know I have. But they will not change. You may wish for a do over or two. But in the end you will apprieate what has happened to you. Happy ( Read more... )

Band Camp. The two most frightening words to all band kids. It's not the heat, marching, or playing. It has alot to do with your band director up on his stupid podium and not to mention freshman. I am a junior and I realize why others are bothered by what freshman say and do. Even some sophmores are idiots. They think that just because they aren't ( Read more... )

I hate being a middle child. ANd this isnt your normal OMG i never get what i want. No this is an i want to sufficate my little brother. He is really starting to annoy the hell out of me. And hje doesnt even get  in trouble for it. no i get yelled at for yelling and he gets away with it. He misses curfew by a couple hours and he gets a new book. i ( Read more... )

 As of this moment in time I have one thing to say. Be your self. When you pretend to be some one else that is soon who you become to be. So please just be yourself. Don't let anybody change you. Because you are perfect just the way you are. If someone breaks your heart, just sulk for a while then move on, because if they are dumb enough to loose ( Read more... )

 I am dating a boy named Josh. And I like him very much. Today I went to hang out at his house and it was nice. Mostly because he kissed me, a lot. I am perfectly okay with it. But I had to ask him to join our family for the 4th of July festivities. Like when we watch fireworks and all that junk, not that it is really junk I have fun with it every ( Read more... )

OKsyso i like this boy and he likes me too. the problem, he's my best friends ex. And she says she's okay with it, and of course i believe her, but still it's strange. She's my best friend. And he dated her. What's a girl to do? I dont even know what I see in him, it's just that when I'm near him, I'm happy. And when I think about him a smile ( Read more... )