i voted for travis the ENTIRE 2 hours...

even if i didnt like travis before... after watching him do the final group number i would fall soo in love w/ him!!

brian & mary were soo right.. everyone i was watching w/ felt the same way.. we tivoed it & everytime i watched it i couldnt help but be drawn straight to him.. from the moment he first ( Read more... )

im so tired of it
im tired of friends who say one thing to my face then talk their shit behind my back!!!

i dont understand what makes me so vunerable to it.. so trusting of people to never hurt me.. ugh!! im just frusturated!!!

when will i be able to find friends (especially male friends) who have finally let go of that high school bull shit???

so tonight is my last night in oak harbor...

im only moving about 30-45 min. away.. but when its down to south whidbey that is so far from my family and friends b/c NO ONE goes down there!

im so excited though b/c im starting a new chapter full of new suprises & even more new challenges! =o)

* so in about 2 weeks i will be moving down to south whidbey ( Read more... )

* ive had this problem since 8th grade.... one i thought that i beat almost 3 years ago. its come back to haunt me once again.... why cant i beat it ( Read more... )

 After a really rocky weekend b/w my mom & me.. ive finally decided its time for me to grow up in aspects that i havent had to yet.... ive spent most of the morning looking up car insurance quotes... i am soo tired of that! lol... but i found out that it wont leave me as broke as i thought it would.... i've gotten quotes from 3 different prices and ( Read more... )

 * Yesterday I went to go see if Eddie (my undercover lover as kadie calls him) wanted to go to lunch & maybe starbucks, but he wasnt in the office... so i left a note including my phone number... around 430 I got a message from Eddie!! =0) he said that hed LOVE to go out to coffee w/ me, but that he wouldnt be free until sunday.. ok.. i could ( Read more... )

so.. there is this guy, an older guy,  that i've had a giant crush on since about the age of 12. since my senior year there have been little moments of flirting between us but lately they've been more frequent, more "grown up" and now there is noticable sexual tension between us....

as gross as it may sound i really wish he would just ask me out. ( Read more... )

  so..just about 2 and a 1/2 hrs after i made the post about cory-- i decided to take a leap of faith & call him, telling him i needed him to talk about something that I just couldnt hold inside, even for one more night. .. so he drove all the way up here from coupeville... & we both poured our hearts out to eachother about our feelings & decided ( Read more... )

* i've finally met someone that gives me butterflies... i havent experienced that in i dont know how long... we have had long, deep conversations everynight the past few days.. just spending everynight with eachother.. not falling asleep until 5-530 in the morning... this is so different for me.. we havent rushed into being physcial like ive done w ( Read more... )