Okay...so you know how I sent that e-mail to Joe a couple of weeks ago? Basically saying how I'm moving on and getting over him and okay with him and Becca and how I didn't even think we truly loved each other or were in love this last round with us (last August-October) and all of that? Yeah ( Read more... )

This is an e-mail that I sent to Joe today...What we've been through still hurts, but it's getting better. Our friendship may never be the same, but I think that someday we'll find something that works for us ( Read more... )

"I hear people saying we don't need this war I say there's some things worth fighting for What about our freedom and this piece of ground? We didn't get to keep them by backing down They say we don't realize the mess we're getting in Before you start your preaching let me ask you this my friend- Have you forgotten how it felt that day? To see your ( Read more... )

Well I guess the update is that Eric and I have been talking on the phone almost every night for a couple weeks now. There've been some nights where we've literally been on from like 10 pm to 6 or 7 am (when the free cell minutes end). And we actually talk most of the time! There are spaces of silence when we're just thinking or tired or whatnot ( Read more... )

( My Decision )

Well...I don't know where to start. This again will be a private entry until due time. I can't even put my finger on how this newest decision came about...I guess there've been doubts on my decision all along, I just didn't know how to resolve it until today. fuck it. I wish I had never met Joe. Seriously. He's caused me more emotional ( Read more... )

Sigh...for at least right now, I will be marking this entry as private. Maybe once I am fully done with and send my response to Joe, I will make it friends only or public. Yeah I still haven't responded to him. I've pretty much come to the conclusion that we need to seperate- friendship included. It's done, over. Been played too many times and ( Read more... )

Well I haven't updated in a bit because I've been busy copying and pasting ALL of the last two and a half years worth of LJ entries into a word document to save them. My mom warned me to do this probably last year at least and I so should've. lol. Would've been much easier to just maintain rather than building up this much more that I need to save ( Read more... )

Well I have some good news- today during lunch my dad went to a car auction and happened to see a black 1990 suburban...for about $3,600. So after a lot of phone calls between him, my mom, and kerri (who had that amount in the bank- actually a bit more) they decided to get it. Now the downside is that it is a GAS GUZZLER. Horrible gas milage. ( Read more... )

Well the good news is still the insurance is "covering" the rental car and giving us SOME money for the van...the downside? The van to them is only worth $1,800. So my mom said I do NEED a job. Which is good in the sense it gives me that push to do so, bad in the fact cause, hell I'm lazy and don't really want to get off my butt lol. But it ( Read more... )