guess we're not going to bloomington after all, because suzi's parents are bitches ( Read more... )

a strange fucking day ( Read more... )

everyday my self-worth slips just a little bit more.

it's just like last year, only worse.

lately i just feel so fucking ugly, and disgusting, and low, and unwanted, and uninteresting, and useless, and cliche, and untalented, and unoriginal, and just... more like the chad i've always known.

you know what? fuck everything.

well, kelly finally told me it's over. she still doesn't trust me ( Read more... )

just finished the first song to go onto the new album.

it's about kelly.

i just hope she eventually hears it.

let me know what you think.

Clinical Torment - "Dreaming"
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( lyrics )

well, this is fucked ( Read more... )

haven't heard from kelly since friday, even though she said she'd call me yesterday. we even had plans to see each other today. what the fuck ever. i guess she doesn't care ( Read more... )

just got back from seeing kelly. i don't know what to think about the whole situation. i love her a lot, but everything's pretty fucked. or at least feels that way ( Read more... )

the new Clinical Torment album should be available within a month or so. the last of the artwork is getting finished up, and then it's just a matter of getting everything sent off and approved ( Read more... )

so. uhm. i broke up with suzi, because i still can't get over kelly. i guess i just love her too damn much.

now it's just a matter of convincing kelly to take me back after all that's happened.

love is fucking weird.