I'm totally scared and don't know what to think about life right now! Beyond depressed and wishing that David would have called me today sence I won't be able to talk for a while after later today! I don't even want to think about the oral surgery! I'm petrified at the moment! I decided to write here cause I know not many if anyone looks here that ( Read more... )

Grawrrr!!! I wonder about life too much! I've started to dl some songs to get my mind off things! It's not easy to dl anything offline at least for free anymore! Everything is pay for this and you must have a credit card for that ( Read more... )

It's done nothing but rain today Sence I've been up! It seems the weather is acting just how I feel! I've been all gloomy sence I woke up today! Woke uP earlier to that damned dream! I wrote about it in my blog on myspace! I ended up running into DJ Sir Bevis while I was out walking today in the rain! We talked for a few hours just walking around ( Read more... )

"most people fear death and others pray for it ( Read more... )

I feel soo lonely! I feel soo violated and not in the good sence! My family went through my stuff while I was gone and found bad things! Or so they call them! Just because It's illegal doesn't mean it's immoral! I'm sick of stupid people! It doesn't even feel like home anymore!

wondering about life again! I know I need to better myself so I can be good enough to be with David but I really do wonder about his motives..just cause of the whole myspace thing but that's it! Diablo 2 is making me made, I keep dieing in Hell mode! I'm soo frusterated about things I only have like 4 more days here and I'm about ready to cry! I ( Read more... )

I almost feel like ishould be shot on site today1 Can't really explain myself at the moment! I stopped doing the "stuff" and I feel the mental lag! It's odd though I know I'm loved but almost feel..i don't know useless...like I'm just a pain in his balls like a ingrown hair! maybe more like i don't know.. I feel like I miss my family yes but it's ( Read more... )

Current mood: rushed ( Read more... )

just a quick little blurb! I just re found my deadjournal and realized I had never used it not one typed a little in it..guess I never felt alive till now! My deadjournal is where most of my life's crap is and here's where my life truely begans! I'm happier than I've ever been in my life! Oddly happy but hungry again dang it! I'm slowly weeding out ( Read more... )