Welcome to the Hotel California ( Read more... )

"Sometimes living with a legend, is better than living with the truth; as long as the person is real, the legend can live. We deal with the truth enough in our worklives, living a fantasy keeps us alive, and us around living" - ME (aka tofallaway)

i ask advice from a friend for advice hole-heartedly...got it, with a cloud raining shit. I love u, but u clarified a whole lot of what i should say.

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i am truly at lost for words. So many angles here, some i could play but wont and others one should play but wont.

when does being a caring 'nice guy' pay off because i have ( Read more... )

((deleted)) = read it over and didn't help anything, not even myself. Two pages of all worry and faithlessness...this is better, the right direction...the only driection.

...so im helping the situation, killing my situation, and putting myself in the dark.

for the time being, yes.

...this time starts new like it should, new and forward. I'll take ( Read more... )

I hope not. If this is the future, it has hit me like a sack of bricks...and has yet to even come close to the reality. I'm feeling the same lonelyness i have so many times before here at home away from my friends, but it is different. Now i have not only legal restrictions from myself being me, but emotional forces keeping me away ( Read more... )

I cannot deny, I am living pretty good right now, no lie. I am already excelling in my classes, hell even one said I didn't need to come back for another 3 weeks because I had last semester down so pat and advanced at that. Meeting mad people in class, some same faces, other pretty new faces....but still not the real faces. Especially those two, ( Read more... )

Today went pretty good. Classes seem easy, teachers are either familar or really nice, and the classes are filled with dumbasses to make some intelligence stand out. I worked out, ate good, finally getting in the grind of things again...

So why do i only want to take shot,

after shot,
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Last night was devastating, more than what you think: to my way of life, not having that person to talk to, not having that careing soul in my life, not having the "coby crew" intact anymore, not having my friends i have made at your place, not having friends i have had for years, most importantly, not having you. Ripped from me in an instant, can' ( Read more... )

can't do it tonight, sooo fresh that everytime i open up the bag...it floods.

maybe tomorrow.

Guess i didn't read the clause ( Read more... )