I walked miles to my boyfriends house in 90 degree weather when he broke up with me because he's the only person I've ever really loved. He didn't take me back. He flirts with other girls. But he still acts like he likes me. He still calls me. And I'm still trying to get him back.
I'm am leading someone on with the hope that one day I will love them like they want me too, although I know that this is never possible. I stay at their side even though I know that it would break their heart and they would want me dead if they knew I kissed other people and slept with other people. I've already realized that I will never love them but refuse to tell them because I know it is the only way I can keep them as a friend.
I honestly don't know if I can remain loyal to one person... no matter how much I love them. The only reason I even try is because it matters to them... honestly I really don't factor sex into love for anyone, so being loyal sexually is something that is completely irrelevant to me, and therefore extremely hard to do.
If I knew I'd never ever got caught, I'd fuck anyone I wanted. And it depresses me to know that I can't.
I have absolutely no idea what I'm going to do with my life. I'm generally unhappy. &I'm still in love with the one person who can ignore it. But he can't do it forever, even though I may be the only one who realizes it right now.
i still check up on my exboyfriend every day. even though i have a boyfriend, i still think of my ex everyday. i think of what would have happened if it didn't fall apart; and if he's kissing anyone new.
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If I knew I'd never ever got caught, I'd fuck anyone I wanted. And it depresses me to know that I can't.
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I'm generally unhappy.
&I'm still in love with the one person who can ignore it. But he can't do it forever, even though I may be the only one who realizes it right now.
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