Did i mention i have remembered almost every dream for the last two years?  That in itself has been surreal.  After 10 years of cerebral blackout, without warning, they returned.

But this time, lucidity.

This night's involved visiting my apartment with my sister.  It wasnt an apartment id ever known from this life, yet still the discomfort of home ( Read more... )

...I think i might start working out.  Weird.

Actually, starting wouldn't be weird.  Following through would be.

I not lost, i'm just not moving.  I want to get high but i know that will only aid my procrastination.  Im restless.  Im scared.  Im stuck.  I just sit here and write music.

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I want to do other things.  I want to be working.  I want to be playing.  I want to be happy.

But, im not.  At all.

Its been six years since i've written here last.  Almost to the day.

I don't know if i want to write, or read, or type.  All of them, or none of them.

My cat is snoring.  I should be.

My consciousness often cant differentiate between having self confidence in who i am and pursuing someone i want to be.

I do know one thing.

I'm depressed.

...am i to do next?

Numb ( Read more... )

Once again...i let myself believe something that wasnt true. Why do i keep doing this to myself ( Read more... )

Looks like im STILL always right.

I hate it. Bring me ignorance.

...just how hard this hit home ( Read more... )

"Closing In ( Read more... )