when the dam breaks down and the city is covered in water.

I'm so terrifired of screwing it all up. I'm so scared you don't care and don't want me in your life. Distance scares me. No contact hurts me.

I dont think I'm cut out for this.

we're all sinking.

So last night at church we all got amazing prophetic words. Mine blew my mind. I guess I'm sharing it.

The first was that "God has my back" Angels are always around me, more than most people, not to go be wreckless, but that I am covered.

The second was that I have a major mothering spirit. I already have like 3 spirital kids but ( Read more... )

Your victory’s on the other side
You’re not alone you’re not alone

For the last few weeks, I've been in texas and turned 19 :D
I have to go to this church camp every year, and every single year its always been the same, but not this year. This altered the youth group. This changed every single person there. People were completely altered.
of corse ( Read more... )

I'm not gonna teach him how to dance! dance! dance! dance ( Read more... )

wheelies on the front wheels.

I took my GED yesterday. I'm insanely confident. I feel like I passed [possibly even the math] I hope and pray I did.

So for the last week I've been a basket case. dramadramadrama. 
1. I was blamed for a break up when I had nothing to do with it.
2. I was threatened by a girl over repeating something.
3. A friend doesn't ( Read more... )

Hope you'll have a party.

I called my Mom for the first time in a month and we were talking about family, and she invites me to this family birthday [on my birthday btw] July 12th, to celebrate a family members birthday and hang out with family. Then I'm going out to eat with my mom.

I'm going to be spending MOST of my birthday with my mom and ( Read more... )

I wish that I'd sail the darkened seas.

I'm nervous beyond belief about my GED test. I'm NOT prepared in the slightest bit. I'm so worried that I'll just bomb the whole thing. I mean the worst that can happen is failing, but I hate failing anything. It kills me. 
I'm about to go study for a few hours and keep at it. I can't let myself fail. I can't. ( Read more... )

She tastes like the real thing.

I'm becoming a homebody again. I do this every now and again. I started re-reading The Bell Jar and it gets me going on reading, so now I have this huge list of books I bought with full intention of reading and never started on. So now I think I'm going to keep the reading up. It's better than sitting infront of my ( Read more... )

You'll find out just who was your friend.

I'm worried. Everyone is leaving for the summer and I'll be here, stuck in Florence, with no friends. When did I become so dependent on others?

Leif: Bonaroo then Europe the whole summer.

Caleb: Becoming homeless, just cause.

Edsel: Wyoming or something.

I guess it just hit me, "Wow. I don't have friends." I ( Read more... )

 its not the milk you seek, it's the sun you need.

One lesson I never learned: How to stay out of things. Everyone else can avoid getting stuck in the middle, yet here I am, completely in the middle of a situation I never intended to get involved in. The problem is I care about people and can listen, but i spread myself so thin and pass myself ( Read more... )