life is so strange. i feel a little sad...but a little happy as well. i'm strong. everything will work out. its ok. when we got to chico on saturday we went straight to his apartment. i saw him from a distance and thought it was a dream. is this real? am i really seeing him? as i got closer it became stranger. He looked the same, but ( Read more... )

yesterday i felt as if instead of me sucking all the marrow out of life, life were sucking all the marrow out of me. When i wasn't in pain i felt lifeless. on sunday night i cried at katie's house because i was confused. when i came home i think i called stephen or the other way around... but he was asking me why i sounded sad. i told him i was ( Read more... )

please excuse anything i said in 2001 in this journal...geeze i was fucking immature and idiotic, i hate reading what i wrote because i sound so fucking stupid sometimes... good thing i'm smarter now... right.. anyways, friday i got a ride downtown with katie from tegan to linneas..wow you can tell how smart i am from that sentence... jesus.. ( Read more... )

I'm sick and tired of everything. so many people make me mad, sad, or annoyed... but at the same time i can't be without them...i'm the kind of person that likes to have people around me all the time, else i feel very lonely. I'm tired of people not calling me back and i'm tired of people calling me who i dont want to speak to. im also tired of my ( Read more... )

It seems like i haven't written in this in millions of years...probably because i haven't. This summer i've been hanging out with Stephen. Most of our time we spend playing video games, swimming at hotel pools, going to bass lake, seeing movies, and throwing water balloons at people as we drive by. I'm fucking good at mortal combat i could kick ( Read more... )

I hate my fucking parents, I hate everything about them

the top ten reasons why katie is the coolest ( Read more... )

ahaha. i got bored so i made more of these stupid top 10 lists. here is ( Read more... )

here's my test results from the test i took that i found on some random guy's lj...
Disorder | Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: High
Antisocial: High
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: High
Avoidant: Moderate
Dependent: High
Obsessive-Compulsive: Low
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today i cried cuz i was watching this VH1 thing on remembering the 90's and kurt cobaine was on it...and they were talking about his death... and it made my cry cuz i was feeling sad already.
so thats my sad story...