Disregard previous post.

At this point I hope to God I lose him because I don't want anyone that behaves that way over me trying to be a caring person.

He is the blood in my veins and all of that but it's not like that, stop making it like that, he is me and I am him. I don't understand this pressue and I don't think it's helping AT ALL. I will NEVER allow myself to love him because I will NEVER allow myself to risk losing him. I'm never going to ask myself if I want more because I don't want to ( Read more... )

GOD I AM SICK OF MISSING HIM.

THERE IS NOTHING TO MISS EXCEPT GOSSIP AND LIES AND HEMORRHAGING MONEY AT HIM.

UH OH

I gotta break the cycle.
Oh but so far it's been FANTASTIC.

Just a little more. Get it out of my system.

Ha.

Ahahahahahaha I have bad judgment at the best of times but I don't know how the fuck I thought THAT would be a good idea. I mean it was fantastic and I think the right thing to do...at the time. But now I am a bit worried shit is going to go down. It did before and I don't think that was nearly as "bad" to any party involved. But this, this is a ( Read more... )

Good night last night, good day today.
It's about damn time.
Sometimes I forget what TRUE friends are and am really thankful for those I have.

Don't thank me, just fuck me.

God I am sick of being alone right now.

Everything is going fast and I am really getting freaked out ( Read more... )

I am trying to sleep and my stupid damn cat is sitting outside my door meowing her damn head off. For no apparent reason.

I hate pets.

Today I got a drive-by serenade.
That was pretty cool.