...the more I stay the same ( Read more... )

My psyche has been the retarded cow to reality's freight train tonight...hope everybody likes a nice rare steak...

Maybe it was the lunar eclipse; maybe the TV show illustrating where I'll probably be in another 10 or 15 years; maybe just the monotony of having a regular job and paying bills. All it boils down to is the shit I've done has come back ( Read more... )

So, my cars in the shop...most likely until Saturday when I need to pick it up to head to work...which means I'll be stranded in the apartment with very little to do. If anyone wants to come over and do something, let me know. I've watched most of my DVDs and am most of the way through the extras at this point, so I'm definitely looking for ( Read more... )

For those of you unaware of the importance of tomorrow (4/20), it's my birthday.

This means you should shower me with attention...

In other words, I'm looking to hang. I took Saturday and Sunday off this week, so I have a lot of time for meeting up with people. Hit me up and we'll work out something.

Later.

So, I've gotten the impression that my last entry was too ambiguous, so I'll begin with a bit of clarification:

Friday: I attended my first therapy session. She confirmed my feelings on certain steps that I've taken recently; she confirms that they are necessary, despite feeling like I'm making a mistake. Therapists will never tell you about the ( Read more... )

Friday:

First meeting. Validation of steps taken. Judged by the nonjudgmental. Recognition of external fear and worry. Acceptance of role in the farce. Meeting two three weeks hence.

Saturday:

Impending loss of an old friend. Coming to terms. Over five years together. More like me each day. Losing her life. Soon to be replaced. Connection ends ( Read more... )

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Racing along the sun baked road I feel the wind coursing through me, sweeping back the need for absolution. The wheel slides back and forth across my lap, occasionally reflecting sharp glares back in my eyes. I know this path like a brother and I've never been able to turn down his challenge ( Read more... )

Just to let everyone know, I'm moving to a new place in Bellevue and it may be awhile before I get internet hooked up. If you need to get in touch with me I'll be able to check e-mail; if it's more pressing, give my cell a ring. If somehow you've gone this far without getting that number, I'm sure you can track it down...

In fact, I honestly don't want to fucking hear them ( Read more... )