Just got back from a really nice walk this morning. Andrew and I went up to Knoop Park and back. It was about an hour walk, something we are trying to do daily. Getting up early is always hard for me when I'm out of the habit, but once I get back into it, it starts off the day perfectly for me ( Read more... )

So I've been attempting to be more proactive lately; however, I've been slightly unproductive.  I have all these ideas in mind of decisions I intend to make and things I plan to do, yet am not getting them accomplished.  I continue to be distracted by trivial things and have little to no self control.  I don't hold myself accountable at all, yet do ( Read more... )

So I haven't posted in this live journal in 127 weeks, yet something has brought me back to it.  I've recently been searching for ways of reconnecting to my former self that felt more healthy, centered and on the right track per say.  I remember this as a way I was able to examine issues in my life and find some sort of outlet for my frustrations ( Read more... )

Why do I always let my mind go into complete overdrive when I start worrying about things? I tend to imagine the worst and always expect for things to end in unhappiness for me. I was once again completly off base in my assumptions and my life is not shattered (just yet) as I thought. I've done a lot of writing, walking, and thinking today and ( Read more... )

today all i can do is wait ( Read more... )

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Death has slapped me in the face
life can end in a split second
why would one decide to do such an act
can one really feel that alone
why did i not reach out more
we all share in the blame
anyone of us could be next
those that refuse to bend, break
i am broken

Wow, its amazing how one's perspective on life can so drastically change their priorities. I'm finding myself wanting new things, having conversations with people I never planned on having, and actually feeling as if life is worth living. Controversy is no longer an everyday part of life, when I once believed that it was all that existed between ( Read more... )

Happiness has come at last
I feel so complete
Every day is new, fun, and full of adventure
Its as if im finally living
the struggle is over
at least for now