during the existence of my entire life, i have never, ever, been filled with so much hate, anger, and pure hostility towards another person. ive had moments of anger, some adrenaline pumping, but nothing to this extent. such disgust. the most malicious thoughts ever. never in my life was i so sickened by another human being that i truly thought ( Read more... )

I don't eve know what to make of life these days to be honest. Some days are just depressing and nothing seems to be going right, then the next day things turn for the better. Today was good, I was shocked. I went to Mercy House for church and was blown away. The sermon was great and its all younger people, like no one over 45. Then I had family ( Read more... )

so it was a pretty slow night at work for once. so i ended up sitting outside thinking about life. i know ill never be able to go back in time and stay where i was happiest. i was young, we were all young and it was the time of our lives but its passed. i wish i was young and innocent and had everything going for me but i really need to move on. at ( Read more... )

Dashboard Confessional and Matchbook Romance, bring me back. want to buy time machine.

ugh, i miss the good ol days

so after my car and all that jazz, my computer breaks...and i sit there at work until 11 waiting for a ride from a friend who never showed up and ignored my calls. i should have known better not to trust her but i did. i come home to a night full of nightmares, which i cant even remember the last time i had one. hopefully today will be better.

as if friday sucked and saturday my car didnt have drive....sunday, i loose my glasses, and my car only has park and reverse... just when things were starting to look up, getting an apartment feeling free and ok with things it all falls apart within a week. i dont even know if i could move out if i wanted too. more later?

im so sick of losing people in my life. i really thought that those days were over, everyone was getting along. but i guess it was a lot of me this time. i have no one to talk to anymore.

so i just read most of my old entries, heh, wow. im sry i tend to act like a pissed off 8th grader from time to time. im still young yet i miss my youth so much. 2006-2007 were the best years of my life. but now im an old guy with a job haha, not really. wat am i talking about im 19 lol. still though, back then i was care free. no problems other ( Read more... )

i feel like such shit. he was like a son to me, and i will prob never see him again. i saw him 10 minutes old and today at over 4 months.the break up was one thing, it was needed, but i didnt realize i was so attached to the kids. its killing me.