Okay Jenn so he didnt really scream but he couldn't speak so thats okay. We made love for the first time exactly 3 months from the day we met. It was actually pretty cute. Niether of us had any idea of the date and i think thats why it went so natural. Neither of us was trying to do anything in particular. I am scared hes going to be wierd now. And ( Read more... )

no one can love me its impossible. Wayne told me this. He said he is the only one who can ever love me and he beat the shit out of me. Maybe its true. Maybe no one can ever love me except Wayne. I think its true. I think I am unloveable. I think no one can love me at all. I cannot be loved I am a piece of shit and nothing can change that.

Hey Jennie Bear. Last night I got drunk. Tom was drinking. He didnt want to drink alone. SO I told him I will drink with him. He said I wont last a half hour. I told him Id make it 3 hours.It was 830 when we started. We played some game called 3 man and a card game called High or Low. I drank like 6 beers in 45 minutes..So i passed the half hour ( Read more... )

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MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and ( Read more... )

Tom is so confusing sometimes, like he wants us to live completely seperate lives along side each other rather than include each other in our lives. If that makes any sence at all. Like he does whatever he wants (drink) and I do what ever I want (sit here) and neither one of us can complain or care about why the other one is doing what they are ( Read more... )

LJ Friends Meme by coolerq
• You must tell 16 people about this game.
• Tom is the one that you love.
• Wayne is one you like but can't work out.
• You care most about Liam.
• Luciano is the one who knows you very well.
• Aniya is your lucky star.
• Patience is the song that matches with Tom.
• Runaway is the song for Wayne.
• In the End is the song that tells you ( Read more... )

I am so freakin addicted to my boi. It hurts when he goes away. He isnt really far just in Nicoles bedroom with her and Ashley singing on the karioke machine I bought him. He said he cant sing in front of people. I guess they arent people. He said they arent, they are kids. Well they are like 15 and stuff so I guess they are, but I miss him. Oh and ( Read more... )

Everyone is sleeping. Well of course it is 531 in the morning. I went to sleep like 3 hours ago. Tom is upstairs sleeping with the kids and the couch is so uncomfortable. Anyways, yesterday he kissed me, like really kissed me, not just like a peck. it was the sweetest thing. It made my whole body tingle from head to toe and back again. And the day ( Read more... )