so apparently my brother is worried about me all of a sudden, worried i'm going through shit and starting to get depressed, but for one i'm fine, and two, since when does he really give a fuck, i mean, for somebody that call me a dipshit all the time and calls me a stupid stoner and shit like that, he's surprised the fuck out of me with his care. ( Read more... )

so i know why i'm the problem, it's because i want to go to sleep thinking "everything is ok" instead of "everything could be ok". but that's where i'm wrong because that in itself makes everything not ok, right? why do i try to make anybody happy? it really never works, i can't even make myself happy, why would i try with anybody else? der i must ( Read more... )

everybody that reads this piece of shit should check out the bands... bright eyes and the spill canvas. they're amazing. ok, that's all i'm gonna say, that's all that's worth saying at this point.

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you ever try to make people happy? do you always fail? well, i would answer yes to these questions personally. i don't know why, but no matter how hard i try, i can never make anybody's life any better, it's like people always settle for second best with me. it's like they're trying to say "well, it didn't work out with anybody else, and you're the ( Read more... )

damn, i didn't know that i was quite that annoying, i mean, i guess i am just another stoner drop out statistic. see, i keep failing people, nothing i ever do is good enough for anybody, i just wish that for one day, somebody could truly see me as what i want to be seen as. i want to be... i don't know what i want to be, shit, i guess that's part ( Read more... )

so tonight i talked to bri stitely, it's been probably six months, i miss her, even though we never really talked much or hung out when she was here, but she was one of the nicest people i've ever met. for example... one day in english i was sitting next to her and this guy, adam richardson, i think his name was richardson, anyways, it is in this ( Read more... )

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