I'm weak. I go back to people and try to fix relationships cause I'm sick of the lonely feeling. I feel like I've lost so many people in a year and a half. It kills me. I know most of it is just because people moved on and became busy but I can't help but think it's me. I'm hurting and I don't know what to do or how to fix it. I'm missing pieces of ( Read more... )

This weekend has been pretty good. Friday night was fun. The haunted house was scary and had me screaming the whole time. Kelly and I made Mike go first and we are glad we did. At one point you were in this PITCH black room and as you walked through it-it got smaller which was really freaky. People were jumping out all over the place--following you ( Read more... )

My lovely alarm went off at 6am this morning and instead of getting ready for class i spent 20 mins throwing up. It was not pretty and not fun. I proceeded to then crawl back into bed and sleep til noonish. I wake up and try to sit in my computer chair and by 1 I was back in bed til almost 4. The whole inside of my body is torn apart and it kills. ( Read more... )

this week has been ...i dont even know. Not good. Not bad. Just kind of there. Only two classes tomorrow and it's the weekend ( Read more... )

He's home. It kills me when he's home cause I NEVER see him. I probably never will. ever again. That breaks my heart more then words can describe. Three years ago...life was pretty damn perfect. He was my best friend. I spent more time talking to him about life and things going on then anyone. He was always there in ways that maybe people on the ( Read more... )

I dreamt about him last night. Ever since Wednesday night, when the guy from sweeny todd (WHAT IS HIS NAME and why cant i remember) sang that song (which I really which I knew what it was cause it fit my life) he's been on my mind. You would think by now I'd let it go. And in some ways I have. I just REALLY miss him. I know I shouldn't but I do. He ( Read more... )

I am posting because Kim told me I should so I am. I am uploading some LAKAAA for her. ooo lakaaa ( Read more... )

It's beyond weird that the group of people that I felt the most comfortable with for so long is the same group of people I will see tonight and dread more than anything. Oh boy I hope tonight ends with drinks. I will need one.

Luther Creek broke my heart today. He cried for pretty much the entire second half. It was just so sad. Sunday night should be extremely emotional. I'm a little nervous to tell you the truth. Good day though besides with Kim ( Read more... )

So one of my TV obsessions this summer as most people know is Beverly Hills 90210. It's just so good. I use to watch the earlier ones when I was younger but never followed it. Now I'm addicted and thank god for DVR. The last one I watched tonight was when Dylan gets married to Toni and the next day she is shot to death. I sat in my grandma's chair ( Read more... )