Happy Birthday to me. at least I say it to myself. Thanks to those who actually remembered on their own.

Christmas was good minus the whole thing with Madelyn and Mark but thank god Mark is okay. Second Christmas without my grandma. Still so unreal. I miss her. She would have enjoyed this Christmas with everyone at the house. I got pretty much all i wanted. I didnt want too much. Dinner with my parents and brother on Christmas Eve was just too special ( Read more... )

I am absolutely and totally in love with Concert Choir. Yesterday was one of the best days ive had in a REALLY long time. There was no stress. There was no sadness. There was no feeling left out. Everyone got along. We sang we laughed we spazzed and we laughed some more. The feeling i have when im with them is AMAZING. Its almost like im in a ( Read more... )

Survived another full week of school. Rough start amazing middle bad ending. Of course the week couldnt just be good. Two day of goodness with him but he fucked up on friday. I dont know. just SIGH ( Read more... )

Last week was really long drawn out emotional and blah. In fact all i remember is it being the longest week ever and hating it with such a passion. All week i was looking forward to the weekend. waiting for saturday. and it finally came. RENT was amazing. did you really expect it to be anything less? I am in love with Jeremy. Honestly he is so ( Read more... )

This week was really long and not my best. Actually it was suppose to be an amazing week. Sunday night i went to bed thinking this week was going to have the feeling of the way things use to be and i was going to be happy and have the feeling of everything is "okay". A feeling i havent felt in so long. Probably since October of last year. But of ( Read more... )

I love christmas music. I'm so excited that i can listen to it without people thinking im crazy. I love Christmas time. This is my favorite time of year. And I'm going to enjoy to make up for last year. I don't even remember Christmas last year probably because I slept through it. Holidays sucked last year. First holidays without someone special ( Read more... )

I am tired and I have a massive headache. Yet I'm still awake on the computer writing in this thing. Why? I dont know ( Read more... )

I feel like throwing up. My nose is all stuffy. My throat is pretty dry. Ever since some fucking moron decided in the movie theater "Hey i'm bored. Saw won't be good enough by itself i need to smoke pot." That smell is the worst smell known to man. I had to get out of that theater and quickly. Stood outside for about 10 minutes until a manager ( Read more... )

Here we are again on another November 15. How could 2 years ago by? How can it be 2 years since we lost you? It still doesnt seem real. It wasn't suppose to happen. You didn't deserve it. It's all such a blur now. I use to be able to remember it all so clearly. Now the only thing i can remember is what you looked like laying in that casket. The ( Read more... )