i want to be an animal cop.
but i would murder someone at every call.

the cat on right now has no front paws because some tool put rubberbands around them until they fell off.

been in bed for 24 hours. this sucks.
feels like i've been vomitting razorblades, although i never ate any so i'm sure that's not possible.

i can't live without julia anymore!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i am the best at fucking up my own life.

i get my license back april 28, 2009.

i can't take it.
i hate myself.

and i hate being melodramitic.

Oh Bayside..you get me so well..
"I hate myself,
more than I ever let on.
I'm burned out at 22.
I lived too fast and I loved too much and I'll die too young,
but I chose this cup that I drank from.
Knew what I was getting into."

finally broke the phone in half.
like all the way.
haha.
oops.

today was..
amazing. perfect.
hurricane day.
weather was nice.
no hurricane.
no choke you out humidity.
sarasota.
all day at the beach.
in the ocean in all of our clothes.
sneaking into hotels to get in the pool.
good people.
her.
<3

i honestly don't believe in broken hearts. especially at 22. but i believe my heart is severely cracked.

what's up party people?

why do i make the same mistake over and over again?
at least i have more time to myself to get a second job and save up some money to move away.