tonight i saw adriane cry for the first time. i didnt like it at all it hurt me so bad to see her cry. me, adriane, madison, and adrianes mom talked about some stuff that was starting to bother us all. i think it helped resolve a lot of our problems that we were all too dumb not to talk about. so it felt good to get all that off our chests i think ( Read more... )

One of the many things I hate about the word “depression” is the assumption of blankness attached to it, as if the experience of depression is as absent on the inside as it looks to be from the outside. That is wrong. Depression is a place that teems with nightmarish activity. It’s a one-industry town, a psychic megalopolis devoted to a single ( Read more... )

i guess i never really listened to people when they told me alcohol brings out the worst in people. drugs let you see people for who they really are. i guess thats really what i have been thinking about most of today. last night was.....strange. strange or fucked up, choose whichever you like. i have found a new way to deal with the rage and ( Read more... )

is it impossible for people to stay loyal? is everyone fated to cheat on their boyfriend/girlfriend? i know the answer to both of those questions. no. fuck no. then why is it that just when i think i have found someone that WONT cheat on me i am proven wrong. i dont know....i havent had very many relationships. but in the ones i have had i have ( Read more... )

the more i think about it the more it gnaws into the back of my skull like a starved pirhana. ignorance can be bliss but ignorance can also chew you up inside making you feel powerless because you know nothing. music plays a stronger role in my life now more than ever; specifically marilyn manson and mudvayne...mansons lyrics are deep and its funny ( Read more... )

Mudvayne - World so Cold ( Read more... )

so this weekend after the football game i went to a party off south first. by the time erik and i get there one of the two kegs is empty and i only get one beer. sadness. so erik and i get there and hear that adriane is in the backyard so we decide to head back there. they are all toking it up so erik and i grab a beer and join in the festivities. ( Read more... )

yes today was the first day of school, and it actually wasnt too bad. yes i have b lunch (boo), i dont like my classes, and sarah and keara are both in one of them. yay lucky fucking me. after school me adriane and daniel all chilled at daniels and smoked a couple bowls and then watched the matrix or most of it. that was fun i like to be with ( Read more... )

summer has come and gone; tomorrow is the first day of school. ::sigh:: i will miss the summer but it will be good to see all my friends and such. lately i have been in a much better mood. my dad is finally getting a job and things are looking much better between me and adriane. i guess i just have too much time to think in the summer, and i over- ( Read more... )

ok ok, after constant nagging from someone who shall remain nameless *cough*katherine*cough* i have decided to update my journal. well well well, a lot has happened since the last time i updated. this summer has been a blast what can i say. i havent had so much fun in a really long time. the most noteworthy event i suppose is me and adriane started ( Read more... )