sighhhhhh

it's like he doesn't even know i exist!

sighhhhhhh

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i  will show no remorse for committing GBH in a computer cluster.

i am seeing twice as much in things than before
i hold every nice word in my hands and cup them to my ears like a shell
and i look at the way your trousers are scuffed and the way you roll your sleeves
and i think maybe nobody has ever thought to do something so great because i have never noticed that on anyone before

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i'm existing in an uncomfortable state of limbo
in between what i want to be doing and what i ought to be doing

i feel as if i'm climbing a wall, and every time i get close to the top, an extra row of bricks gets added
i am always nearly there or nearly understanding or nearly involved

my head is all candyfloss again and i just want to sit in the

it does not bode well
for everyone to be apologising to me
because my affections are always misdirected

and my arms feel all useless and
itching to be used
my violin is at tim's house and
i feel like something is missing

and i've not slept in my bed two nights in a row
i must seem awful and desperate
and i wonder if someone can tell that you are awake
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How long will this take?
How long must I wait?
My heart is sinking
What were we thinking?
I can't fake this anymore

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i feel like a series of mistaken judgements
i am speaking words which mean more than i mean them to
a broken tap running water of faux pas and innuendo

i feel as though i am only ever a pain to be around
when i don't want to be, i want to ( Read more... )

i think i'm too drunk to sleep
but i just want to sleep without any thoughts
no dreams if possible, too
just a deep sleep and wake up and face the day

my heart literally aches right now
the thought of uni and waking up early for work is exhausting
but these are all stupid, stupid trivial things

life is so much more than deadlines oh my god it surely is
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we folded our pieces of paper
so they would open in the centre, like a gate
colouring in the sky
miss congratulated you
whilst the rest of us drew the night
like a line at the top
you coloured the darkness all around
from the sky down to the ground

i don't know what i expected to be said ( Read more... )