a new year brings new things and I have been experimenting. I am meeting new people and am breaking out of my shell. I am making plans to live my life and not just watch it pass me by.

I am really optimistic that this year will be a good one....it's about time ya know.

I am happy and I am having fun and I've only just begun.....2006!!!!

I don't remember all of what's happened since I last posted on here but I've spent almost every night since then, up until this past Saturday, getting stoned or drunk ( Read more... )

OMG!!! Do I have a story or what ( Read more... )

Well i'm sure that everyone has heard that the final test to see if you are over a previous love is to see what you feel when you are with them in person. Well I passed. I am over Jon. I saw him this weekend and nothing (unlike the previous times I have seen him). There was no feelings of love or want or need or anything. I didn't even feel ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been a long time since i was last on here and a lot has changed. To be short I broke up with Jon on AUGUST 13. It was a very painful last 2 months of the relationship but its over. I spent time going through the heartbreak phase and now I'm completely over him. I realized from an outsiders viewpoint that I WAS IN a really bad ( Read more... )

I don't know what to do to help my relationship from diminishing before my eyes. I just got back from a "romantic" stay at the Four Seasons Resort with Jon to "rekindle the spark" in our relationship. My mother and Jon thought that some time away from everyone and work and bills and basically everything, but I ended up crying for a long while ( Read more... )

Well my life is pretty shitty and the advice i am getting is not helping. I have not been eating for a week, been depressed and self mutilating myself. I haven't done it so that it is noticable because i learned in 8th grade how to hide it but i'm really mad that i'm doing it again. I'm not doing it to the extremes, but i am doing it. it seems ( Read more... )

I have come to the conclusion that my boyfriend is a complete liar and thinks that i am believing him. I found out he was reading my livejournal (which i don't mind) but he lied about it and this week i found out he has his own and has been looking at mine again. Why can't he just be honest about it. It's not like i care that he reads it or that ( Read more... )

It's Saturday night again....I just got home from spending like 3 hours with my bro and his friends. I feel really pathetic because I spent my night with a bunch of 15 year olds. I've gotten two calls this week from people I haven't talked to in years....one is a YPK (Youth Pastors Kid) and the other an old movie buddy. I think I'm gonna call ( Read more... )

It's Saturday night and I'm home.....all alone.....drinking ( Read more... )