yeah i was supposed to start listening to northstar i burned the CD and put it in my discmanthing and now i cant find it. i need that for tomorrow my long car ride to the therapist in guam. i think im going to ask my therapist to help me figure out how to tell my mom that i have a girlfriend lol. i get to start dance soon im excited i havent been ( Read more... )

today is boring i did nothing all dayyyy and tomorrow is no school for everyone. so im hanging out with tamara :D. i miss her all the time when shes not here. thursday im supposed to hang out with danielle and darkie. i havent seen then im so long. theres no reason i updated except that i made it all colorful and fun.

well the day was uneventful. but then at night tamara came over and we waited for alexis and casey. we went to blockbuster and walked around forEVERrrrrrrr and never decided on a movie. we went food shopping cause casey wanted applesauce and we got iced tea. tamara was very quiet and shy. and a+c were very violent. we went back to my house and ( Read more... )

playing with tamara's cat is a form of self mutilation. that thing is absolutely nuts. it runs all over the place and pounces on everything. it attacks its own tail and its own hind legs. ive never met an animal like Peaches. i slept over tamaras house last night with her friend christy. we had a lot of fun. we smoked and the jackass movie was on ( Read more... )

today was my last day at the program. i had the best goodbye group ever people said a lot of compliments that i didnt really think of myself. they all said i was funny and i make people smile. one kid who reminds me of my old best friend when i was little said a lot of nice stuff. it made me really happy. i feel like i've grown up a lot thanks to ( Read more... )

me and liz are just friends now. i feel crappy about it. but i dont know the relationship was going nowhere. and i never see her. and im startingn to get close to tamara. i feel rather guilty. i dont know i dont want to say anymore. ugh. tamara likes me and she has a lot of away messages and info with lyrics about wanting to be with someone im ( Read more... )

oh man today was really good until now ( Read more... )

today i slept and i had dreams about people burning to death and all they could do was jump off a cliff into water. and i was having panic attacks and i couldnt make it go away. but besides all that morbid stuff. ive been spending the days at grandmas house because my mom doesnt trust me to be home alone. i think im safer alone because at grandmas ( Read more... )

i wrote a letter to God today. because when i pray to him it doesnt seem to work. i think too fast to know what im talking about and i beg too much and i dont sense any clear answers. i think im going nuts..... but like more nuts. im turning into an OCD freak with numbers on the clock and page numbers and card shuffling and the microwave dinger and ( Read more... )

theend0fs0und: oh god i had a nightmare ( Read more... )