I guess I come back to this just to pick scabs.  I have completely neglected my daily writing, on here and in my more frequently utilized composition notebooks.  I vow, now and then, to write daily to get perspective on things to keep me in check and to blow off some steam so the crazy train in my head doesn't jump the tracks.  I think I've just ( Read more... )

It cannot be said enough how much I hate being in Jackson.  Grand Rapids is an oasis of liberal thought compared to this backwater shit hole.  I hate it even more because it makes me lose all faith in the future of humanity.  It makes me feel like my education is worthless because all of the theory I'm learning can't help me combat the racism, ( Read more... )

The Pope says that saving the world from gay and transgendered people is just as important, if not more, than saving the Rainforest.  You heard it, folks...you better switch up your priorities.  TRADITIONAL GENDER ROLES are where it's at.  Back in the kitchen, ladies.

On one hand, I have kicked ass for most of the semester; I've stayed on top of things, I've gone to a good majority of my classes and I didn't give up.  I'm expecting B's at least in three of four of my classes.  On the other hand, I definitely hit a brick wall a few weeks ago and lost control of some stuff, namely chemistry.  I've missed the last ( Read more... )

Despite the immense amount of studying I need to do for exams, I'm so glad they're finally almost here!!!  I am so sick and tired of being a slave to my text books.  I, a bah humbug kind of atheist, am even excited for Christmas.  I think I've decided not to go down to Jakckson at all this holiday because Thanksgiving was just about unbearable.  I ( Read more... )

I have a really strong urge to delete this entire account because it seems so self-centered and insignificant concerning what's going on in the world, but it's my last ditch effort at keeping in touch because seeing a lot of you is impossible without a car and I hate talking on the phone almost more than stepping in barf.

You may be thinking to ( Read more... )

I've been really tempted to seek a geographical cure for my stress and restlessness lately.  I don't need a warm environment to kick back and relax; I just need somewhere new, maybe quiet and isolated.  I'm so desparate to break out of this mental cycle and these bad habits I feel trapped in. Tricia and I have talked about studying abroad and just ( Read more... )

I have an interview tomorrow with a temporary agency.  I am aspiring to be a fish kebob-ist.  I should just quit school and become a career kebob-ist.  Okay, maybe that's not a good idea but I've finally (hopefully) got a job!  It's just a summer job, but I haven't had a non-loan income since I moved up for college.  I'll only be working one or two ( Read more... )

I used to love writing in this so much.  I recently reread some posts from a couple of years ago and wow...I think my friends all deserve medals for putting up with me.  I guess that statement holds truth still.

I guess most people who read this (all three or four) see me or talk to me enough to know what's been going on in my super exciting life; ( Read more... )

I guess it's about time I posted an entry.  Without a laptop or internet access at home, this has kind of fallen by the wayside.

I am already considering hoboism as an alternative to life as I know it.  I am having really big problems with anxiety and I recognize that I probably need professional/medical help with it, but (and there's always a but) ( Read more... )