He is a bad man. Had he been good the good would and will persist. Fear not abandonment by the devil.

Not only [is all creation groaning under its bondage to decay], but we ourselves, who have the firstfruits of the Spirit, groan inwardly as we wait eagerly for our adoption as sons and daughters, the redemption of our bodies.

-Romans 8:23

But if we hope for what we do not yet have, we wait for it patiently.

-Romans 8:25

I am not unlovable. He's an idiot. 

Dreaming of D last night helped me reset my heart. This also coincided with the feeling that I have a higher purpose, and that purpose is kindness and generosity. So I told A/SB that I wasn't mad, that I was glad to have met him and that he should go to couples therapy with his wife. I told him he was a good person, and that it would work out. And ( Read more... )

this is some pretty powerful poetry from the bible right here ( Read more... )

It is still too painful to paint even a small portrait here of the time passed, but I will say that meeting you, D was still the most important moment of my life - and unless perhaps I have a child, it always will be. Even a difficult and painful relationship with you is one worth having - that is the level of impression you leave in peoples lives ( Read more... )

Or maybe it's just one of the inevitable feel like shit mental health days...

Spending time today with D's friends was really hard. Up til now I've been full of adrenaline, overwhelming grief and the accompanying visions and connections that give me the feeling that Daniel is still here. I don't like to say denial, because on some level he is still here - his spirit is with us, and is still playing tricks. We were skating ( Read more... )

I just read an indecipherable page of a journal about one line of poetry detailing the branches of a tree.

What is my life exactly??

Unfortunately I can’t recall most of what I dreamed last night, but I did just remember one very amusing thing.
WS revealed that half his body had taken off the reticulations of a giraffe and that he’s had some kind of awful accident where his penis became totally deformed. D must have been involved in this somehow 😁