I swear to god.

You must have more elves in your head than santa's fucking workshop, to come up with the scenario's you do. I tell you I love you, I shower you with affection, we go out on a date, we spend the nights together, and yet in one text from that fucking whore, you're off like a shot. You slap me, you punch me in the ribs, you ignore me ( Read more... )

 Gonna super nutshell this, because I've got shit to do today. As you usual, it's one of my dreams that just suddenly got way too vivid, way too fast.

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So I don't remember where it started, but what I do remember is the feeling of cold air twisting through my head. Deep breath after deep breath of cold, crisp, fresh air.

I open my eyes to ( Read more... )

I came here upset, but then I started to read things. Read things that honestly, I probably should be more insulted by than anything, but you know what, all in all, it really bring up good thoughts in my mind.

I do everything in my power to love purely, openly, and as fairly as within any man's power. I give it my all through the up, downs, and ( Read more... )

You guys know that time of year where I have that one really vivid nightmare?

Well I guess it's just my luck, this year it has decided to be reoccurring. . .

Well guess I might as well get to this, although the way it's been going, I'm sure that I may have to write this a few more times before it subsides, if it ever does subside.

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If this isn't the most god damn ironic timing for this to be posted.

My god, I fucking HATE this shit. Really? A Facebook status about how I got my layoff papers last night sets everyone into a fucking fiery inferno of blazing brimstone and smoldering ash. Sorry for being layed-off less than 24 hours and not having a new fucking job yet.

How many ( Read more... )

"I walk the line of the disappointed,
I celebrate when I'm in pain.
My heart and mind can be disjointed,
I built a bed in this hole I made.
I recognize that I'm damaged,
I sympathize that you are too,
But I wanna breathe without feelin' so self-conscious,
But it's hard when the world's starin' at you.

Another piece of the puzzle, that doesn't fit.
You throw ( Read more... )

I like that quote "Shit Happens". I Don't think I've ever come across anything with more truth to it than that.

My best friend had a lovely scare for the past couple days, one of the worst kinds.

"Better wear a latex, 'cause you don't want that late text, that "I think I'm late" text."

That kind of scare. He calls me right away and tells me and I ( Read more... )

Personal journal time.

The rare occassion where I simply write everything down, no matter how I feel, for me. Not for anybody else, because one day I'm gonna wanna look back at there and know how the hell I felt at this point in my life.

Aaaaaannnnnddddd, begin.

"The same tricks that, that once fooled me
They won't get you anywhere
I'm not the same ( Read more... )

"No I can hardly breathe suffocating me bleeding it out
All over the ground

Tell me when it's over
Wake me when I'm sober
The scars too hard to hide
I should've known better
If only I could be strong enough to see that it's over
I wish I'd never met you
'Cause you were supposed to be coming back to me
Where are you now?
I should've known better"
"Every time I ( Read more... )

My heart decayed and deadened
By this ravenous winter
Forsee the end is frozen
Begins this timeless winter

Seamless neverending time
As I begin to quiver
I lay still with these crystals of cold
This lifeless body begins to wither

You ever feel like everyone is just feeding you utter shit? Not even "beating around the bush to make you feel good" crap, more ( Read more... )