Alot has happened this week. I'm in a good mood... but I'm sad at the same time. I miss James... =( He's in jail in London and I can't do shit about it. You guys dunno who James is... but if I showed you a pic you probably would. I just looked at a bunch of old pics of him. Made me cry. He's been in jail for 2 1/2 months. It sucks. But I'll just ( Read more... )

So... I got a christmas present from a friend already. He didn't need to get it for me. But it was free, and it's awesome! =D I got a signed pic from Hypnogaja, a demo cd for their new song, and a new sticker of theirs. ^_^ Pretty fucking cool. Man! I let Don borrow my collar last night for his show in Oklahoma City tonite. And I feel so naked ( Read more... )

Well... let's see... Don went for Amanda... they dated for a week and she cheated on him the whole time with her ex that she dumped Don for. How sweet is that?... grrrr... bitch... sorry... anywho... Then he thought he wanted to be single for, forever maybe (that's how he put it). And then came Rosalie... whom he has known for 6 years... so I dunno ( Read more... )

I've been patient as hell, and I don't think it's going to happen. And I don't want to be with anyone else. So fuck relationships for a while. And fuck sex too. I don't need either one. Don's crush for the longest time is wanting him too... so I do believe I'm out of the picture... you know what I mean. I mean, a girl would pick the guy she loved, ( Read more... )

How can something hurt this bad? Heartbreak is the only thing I feel right now... I know I'm all alone now. All I have is Kayla now. *cries* Why does this hurt so much? I hate this. Love is a bullshit lie that you tell of to your children to give them false hope.That there is something so wonderful, that nothing can stand in it's way. Something ( Read more... )

Well... today was like a fucking roller coaster. Everything's ok when I wake up. Right before I have to go to counseling... Kayla calls... well an hour before. She started getting pissed off, because I was taking both Scott's and her side. And I'm tired of being in the fucking middle. She tried to tell me that Twitch was talking shit on me. And ( Read more... )

One month exact and I'll be 17. Oh goodie... *sarcasm* I hope more people actually show up to hang out this year. Why should I plan a party though? Last year was gay as hell. Chelsea came over for 30 minutes or so earlier that day. Then, Tiffany came and we went and picked up Isaac. And came back home. Went to Pizza Hut and went to the mall to pick ( Read more... )

We went to Fowler on Saturday... the cemetary out there wasn't as great as one of the two that we went to yesterday in Elmdale. It's up on a hill, small and quaint. The grave were so old that some you couldn't read anymore. A few headstones were broken, which was sad. There was one big one for a whole family and bushes had grown over half of it. ( Read more... )

I need to quit worrying. Twitch and I are still basically talking... anybody else that hits on him, pisses him off. If I hit on him... well, I'm allowed to. Cuz it's different. =D I feel special. Why worry? Him and I still basically have something. Dunno how long this is gonna last... but whatever... I'm happy to at least be in his thoughts. And he ( Read more... )