you make my eyes hurt.

love,
sarah

last night, luke called me (back, actually, i had called him earlier). anyway, he began the whole convo by saying, "i'm so attached to you, more than any girl i have ever known ( Read more... )

last night was pretty fantastic. it was a monster party at matt's house, the monster part was called off because not enough people wanted to dress up. but then i dressed up as a clown anyway. and quite a few others dressed up as well ( Read more... )

i know i was always saying that one day the tables would turn with luke and i. and i know i said i looked forward to the fun it would be rejecting him. and i know i got all up in arms when we talked. it's not fun. i thought it would be fun. it isn't. it's unfair, is what it is ( Read more... )

MY FRIEND JESSICA HAS A FAMILY FRIEND WHO'S GETTING MARRIED IN ARGENTINA IN AUGUST AND SHE HAS ANOTHER FRIEND WHO'S AN "INSIDER" IN THE AVIATION WORLD WHO SAYS HE CAN GET HER TWO ROUND TRIP TICKETS FOR $265 EACH. SHE WANTS ME TO COME WITH HER!!!!!!!!!!!! AND SHE WANTS TO BUS WITH ME AFTER THE WEDDING OVER TO CHILE SO WE CAN STAY IN THE BODEGA THAT ( Read more... )

you all know that one thing that always messed you up in the past. the one thing you could never say "no" to. the one thing that you wished you could just walk away from but it has a magnetic force that refuses to let you go ( Read more... )

you have this way about you ( Read more... )

AGAIN....WTF ( Read more... )

i have found myself in such an optimistic mood today. i am incredibly ok with that. matt called me to inform me that he called in sick to work because he was up vomiting all night. i went and took care of him friday and saturday and he was feeling quite a bit better and he felt good at work on sunday. then on sunday night it got even worse. i feel ( Read more... )

i have the strangest feeling regarding matt. i know the way he holds me, the way he sacrifices himself for me, and all of these things should show me that he and i are back on. i can't help but feel severely insecure with him though. like i have a hold on him but it's just sand that i am holding onto, and it will eventually all slip from my hands ( Read more... )