i want him so bad, i love him, i love having sex with him (havent in 4 months and i want to so bad) i love everything about him, i want his children, i wanna be his wife, i dont care if he has men on the side, i dont want to have my kids with anyone but him, only him, no one else... i do everything for him, i want to get a house with him, i got so ( Read more... )

totally forgot that i even had an account here anymore, so today i decided to see if it would even still work... and you can see the answer... i'm so glad though because noone hardly gets on here anymore and i really need to vent out some things... namely, talking about my "friends" these days ( Read more... )

i am so sick and tired of living this double life, i dont care who sees me for what i am anymore. i am tired of being screwed over every chance i get, im tired of people disrespecting me every chance they get. enough of this shit. im done ( Read more... )

i am so frustrated on so many levels... my parents are pissing me off and think its a cute little game to play with me, seeing how much pressure it takes for me to break... well im sick and tired of it, its wrong to try to use pity as a trap, excuse and snare into keeping me involved in their lives simply because they are being selfish by wanting ( Read more... )

im hating life, everything sucks and im barely hanging on by a thread, im so sick and tired of trying all the time, i dont know what to do anymore, sorry im extremely depressed right now, ignore me

there are some things i love about being at home ( Read more... )

i am just so upset with myself. i dont know what to do... everytime i try to make things better, i make them worse! what the hell is wrong with me?! things are so tense between me and one of my friends, and i have nothing to offer them. i am truly a shitty ass friend. whats wrong with me? why am i so selfish that i hurt everyone around me? why does ( Read more... )

i have a dumbish question, since i cant get any comments in 6 months,
im gonna be a lil kid and ask, but seriously, its necessarry to ask this...
how many people actually read my blogs? leave comments? think about it? 
how come i never hear anything from you or about you anymore?
i miss being apart of ppls lives, evrytime i try, im shut dwn
what ( Read more... )

i dont know why ( Read more... )

hey everybody-- no, i havent disappeared off the face of the earth, just been busy watching tv and going to class... but changing that now, and the notes make more sense when you take the time to read the books! hahaha, oh well... havent been up to much lately, havent been at my parents house since... what is it, memorial day? no thats not right, ( Read more... )